Hi , i was wondering could you please help me, im female 23 years old, my father is a paranoid schizophrenic he hasnt been in my life since i was 4, my mam passed away when i was 16 i have 3 brothers and 1 sister, life has not been easy, ive been unemployed for the past 2 months and have alot of debts and i dont know what to do with myself every relationship i have i have become somebody i dont even know getting angry and annoyed at boyfriends for things that should not bother me that much, my self esteem at the moment is non existent everytime i look in the mirror i cant seem to find anything i like, i cant hold on to a job as i get bored after a few months i dont know how to change, im starting a new college course soon and i am hoping this will make my life better and happier but i want to know whether you think im just reacting to having to much time to think lately or whether there is something more to it?