Ok here it goes............... I met my boyfriend online, on yahoo personals. We have been together for three months today. He is seven years older which i love, i am almost 30 so the age gap really is not a big deal at all at this point. I like that he is older because i hope that he has had all his crazy experiences and now just wants to find the right person. We have been getting along great these last three months and I am very happy with the way things are going. My only issue is something that has also come up in all my previous relationships. Trust issues. I cant help but always think that the person i am with will find someone they are more into or that they like better than me, no matter how committed we say we are. A few years ago one of my exes cheated on me, which was something he confessed to after i broke up with him. this just confirmed my paranoia. With the new guy my issue is that he is always online. We both took down our personal ad and he has told me he talks to people he met seven years ago online that he will never meet nor does he want to. i actually do believe him. He works a job where he has 12 hour shifts and does call dispatching so they have alot of slow time and he can be online and is. he is also online when mi not around. i know he is used to being online all the time and he even talks to family on there. But still, I cant help but stress out about who he is taking to and what about. How do i ease this? i don't want to be a jealous crazy girlfriend. he is not usually on it when im at his place but that is to focus on me i know. I have asked him if he was sure he wanted to do this and that he is not looking for anything better and he said no. he is not the type to beat around the bush. He also told me that the other night he talked to a friend online about me for half hour. He shared this without me asking. I know he has been single for a while and so he is used to doing this. he has not had a really serious relationship in five years, so i know the people you talk to during that time ads up, even with friends that are girls. But ah it still freaks me out. I see myself becoming paranoid and clinging, something i said i would never do again.
Basically how to I calm my fears. I know I have trust, self esteem oh and im sure other issues, but what can i do to relax have fun and enjoy the ride? I just dont want to be wasting my time with the wrong person anymore you know??
THANK YOU !