Dear Arlene,
I just read your post and I can identify with you. I have been on every diet there is out there, remember that the word diet has the word DIE in it, so diets as you know don't work. You are on the right track when you say that you want a lifestyle change because loosing weight is mostly a mental thing. We need motivation, I like to call it a "personal motivating factor" something that is a do or die situation for you. If you can't think of a situation to motivate you, make one up. Forget counting calories but do remember that if you take in more calories then you burn you gain weight thats all thats to it. So everyone says eat less and move more, but some people just can't get into an excersize mode until they shed a few pounds and feel more comfortable. Like I said I have tried many programs but I did find one that worked for me and I follow it religiously, I will supply the link to it at the bottom of my post. With anything that wer are trying to accomplish be it losing weight, writing a book, quitting smoking, we have to really want to do it, or nothing will work. There is no magic bullet for this if there was I would have found it but with some determination a little hard work anything is attainable, I know I've been there.
Check out this program you have nothing to lose but the weight!. Good luck to you. Here is the link. http://rbnj57.stripfat.hop.clickbank.net
This simple program that I found worked for me and a few people I on turned on to it. It's called ' Strip The Fat", They expalin what to eat when you go out to a restaurant which helped me considerably.