Sara, if you have changed your mind or found an answer to your problem, that's fine.
But if you are still in need of help, just take the plunge and ask us for assistance. I guarantee, there is nothing you can say that we haven't already heard. And no one here who has replied will make fun of you, I promise.
All of these people are very caring and helpful individuals and you can trust any one of them to give you a fair and helpful answer, or at the very least, to do their darndest to do so.
Give them a chance, Sara. You'll be glad you did.