girls! Thank you both so much! May it be my hormones, but I am fighting back tears that two strangers have my best interest at heart.

I am planning on taking what you both said into consideration and hoping to get at least one more counsiling session for myself in before I make any type of call to him. 

And just to let you gals know, he had said in the past that his feelings were not as strong as they used to be. He said this while visiting me in the hospital during a meeting for I was diagnosed with depression.  But as I stated in my first post his mom said he is distraught, but that's not a strong enough word, she told me in confidence that he was sobbing the other night, and when he came to my gyne apt (I am letting him know when they are so he can be part of that) the other week, I saw him walking to his car with his head down (usually walks with confidence) and his mom said that's how he always looks lately.  No one really knows why he's sad or what's going through his mind because he does not talk... meaning... does he miss me and our possible future? is  he upset about having kids?  Mutual friends that work with him just don't mention anything, but he is able to mask his feelings and go on with no words or communication to others... even his mom is unsure of what he is thinking as well.  I am afraid to approach the subject at all cause of either pushing him further away or losing any chance with him at all in the future.  Or should I let the Universe unfold naturally?

I think he may also feel like a chum for not being there for me and may have too much pride to take me back.  I dunno.  But thanks for the input! I feel grateful.