So theres this guy..ive known him for almost a year and we began as friends while he had a girlfriend at the time..everytime he would talk about her it would piss me off and him and i would constantly fight all the time, then he said something that i just couldnt take and i didnt talk to him for like three months (and i never hold grudges) but i tried my best to forget about him and i was doing a really good job and then he pops up and starts talking to me again. I agree to talk to him afterwhile and then he starts talking about this girl he likes and how he liked her even when he was going out with his other girlfriend that he loved alot(His girlfriend and him had broken up 4 months ago) so i play along knowing well that he was talking about me, and he was, but i didnt even believe him when he said he liked me a whole lot because i thought i would be just another girl to him..cuz he's dated alot of girls, but he tells me they were just to pass the time away..cuz well, he hasnt had the best home life. so he tries to convince me he really likes me for the next week and he kept on trying to show me that i like him when i said i didnt..i was so confused and i still am. hes gotten me to say that i love him though..and i do love him, i really care about him..and now were going out..but for some reason its hard for me to be comfortable around him..i had never kissed a guy till him and he's so experienced and im so not experienced..so its intimidating..i want to be with him but im horrible with showing my love, i was in denial of liking him for such a long time, and i have no idea how i ended up liking him or even loving him within two months of talking since the three months that we didnt talk all i know is that it must have come gradually or maybe i knew it all the time..sometimes i just think that maybe i shouldnt be with him and that were just not meant to be cuz he makes me so angry sometimes and sometimes i dont even think i have feelings for him in that way..but the thought of not talking to him every night and during the day makes me so sad. so my question is do i really want to be with him?
