Do you think we stand a chance ( I really love him ) ?

hey hun, sounds like you are having a really hard time gettin over this guy. Take a deap breath and think about everything you and him went through. It is very true that once trust has been broken that it is hard to get it back to where it once was, but not impossible. He is gona need a lot of time to consider if this relationship between you and him is wearth it. Looking at it from his point of view he is very hurt by it all but doesn't mean that he dont still love you. Take it easy for awhile and take time and think about your past relationships. I believe every relationship, weather it is personal or if they are just someone you see every now and again, leaves a lasting impression on you. Every person you have ever met has changed your life in one way or another. This man you feel so strongly towards may not be the man you are ment to settle down with but to open you up in a way to see the potential of the guy who you will settle down with. Love is a very powerful emotion and comes with a price. We open ourselves up when we let someone in our hearts and at times we end up with a big pile of tissues in our laps and gallon of chocolate missing from the frig. but all in all it was wearth the pain and suffering. I don't want you to give up on how you feel but when it comes time to let go, take it as a learning experience and have a brighter outlook on the next relationship you get into. If you are ever in doubt.... pray. If it is ment to be it will be, if not then take it as it comes and keep going. Pick your head up and look for a brighter tomorrow. I wish you all the best. I hope that I helped you in some way. You do seem like a very sweet and caring person, and if he is too blind to see that in you, even though you made a mistake, (considering it is hard to trust someone you meet online, everyone takes some precautions in some form or another) than he is missing out on a good thing by passing you up. Don't give up and don't let it get you down. All things in life teach us leasons, sometimes we don't see them for what they are. >:D<

I think you need to confront your personal demons and come out the other side confident in yourself. If he (and you for that matter) are still single then there is nothing stopping you getting to know each other again afresh.

I know you love him and it's hard but you can't place your happiness on this man and your relationship with him because if it were to end, you will crumble. I know this because I did this in my darkest days and I crumbled. I promise, I am not being cruel, you need to know that you need to be independent and can do it.

Because I don't know what the trigger for your depression is, I can't advise a way out of it but sometimes, if you come outside of your shell and stop thinking about your problems, they will not seem so bad. Once you can start focusing on how lucky you are (possibly do charity work so you can feel achievement in helping others) you can concentrate on consciously changing your life for the better. Taking control feels so good, even if it is just a new hair style.

I really hope this guy sees the effort you make and you get what you need, not necessarily what you want. Good luck.

Well Dear, I think You should get the help You need for the depression. Fine the interchild and be happy first before You try the relationship. Once trust is gone it's gone. If He felt the same, as You feel about Him He would have stayed with You. Reguardless. So pray or find someway to help Your happiness along and when Yo're happy and if He's the type of Guy You think He is He will smile with You.God Best You