Hi Anna,
Very understandable: You love him, you want him, and he is far away. BUT "he doesn't want relations".... that is not enough for you and you decided to move on (corectly). The best thing you can do is write to him (or phone) and tell him something like: "I want you to know that I still love you, I miss you, and if you want to take our relations one step further I'll be there for you".
Best regards,