I'ven been in a 15+ year relationship with Charlie. We lived together until 2.5 years ago. Things had gotten really bad between us. Charlie's youngest son was killed in a crash and because he was hurting so badly, he struck out at me. He told me that he had been with someone else early on in our relationship but not since. He said it happened before he was sure of us.
It broke my heart and I told him that I was going to move out as soon as my oldest daugter graduated from high school. For six months, we lived under the same roof but not together.
I bought a trailer in the next town and began moving my things out. Charlie and I continued to spend time together working on our relationship. I had never doubted that Charlie and I would eventually work things out. And, now that we weren't living together, we got along better than ever.
Things were wonderful. For awhile. Then Charlie told me it was over and he was seeing someone else. I was heartbroken! I just couldn't believe it. After the initial devastation, I picked myself up and began having a life of my own. I began going out and having a good time and I began having a relationship with Roger. I had known him, or atleast known who he was, for years. I had never really talked to him though until I was forcibly single again. I enjoyed getting to know him better and he helped me through a very difficutl time in my life. Roger is a nice guy but not one that you would ever expect to be faithful in a relationship so I'm not sure what I was doing.
After 3 months apart, Charlie realized he screwed up BIG time and begged me to give him a second chance. And after much soul searching, I decided all the years we had together was worth trying one more time. Things were good at first. It was and is hard for me. Charlie really tries at times though. Other times though, I see our relationship slipping. I want to live together again and make a real commitment to each other. Charlie is holding back on that though. He says it's because he hates my dogs and won't live in a house with dogs again.
My problem though is Roger. I've tried to give Charlie a real chance but Roger keeps slipping back into my thoughts. I still run into him and when I do, I can't resisit spending time with him. Why am I doing that?
