For about three to four years I had a sexual fantacy of having sex with a transexual (male-to-female). I am addicted to porn and search porn more than eight hours a day, and mainly search transexual porn, and some times abnormal porn (such as amputtee etc).I also fantacize being raped and being submissive in sexual act (such as to an elderly lady who would abuse) and search that typr of porn.
I was once sexually abused in my childhood although you cant term it equivalent to rape. Dont know if it has anything to do with it.
My transexual fantacy and being raped by a transexual is taking me over so strongly that I am unable to carry out my day to day activities. I am 18 years old and dont know how to get over it.
I cannot get professional advice from where I live. It is impossible for me to get to a therapist or a pshycatrist.
