Thank you, Intime!  I'm glad I could use my experience in this area to help you out.  Love is such a strong emotion.  It can literally take over your heart, mind, soul and life.  You have to put that love in perspective sometimes. Is the man you love honestly worth all that activity?? Or, is he just a replica of the real man ~ the man that was worthy of that much affection, effort, and concern.  I wish you nothing but the best, Sweetie.  Just keep repeating the mantra ~ "He isn't real. I don't love him.  I want the real thing.  I deserve the real thing."