I'll start by saying that i don't know why i'm posting this question here because the answer i must find it alone. I'm a little shy and i live with a constant depressive mood. I am not a social person,i have two friends i'm talking to and one of them is a lot like me.
The thing is i like a girl at my uni, we are in the same group. I'm on year three now and i like her since the first days. But you know how it is.. time just flows. In this time i noticed some signs, for ex. in the first year i noticed she was often starring at me. I have to say she is so good looking and i didn't think that could actually meant something because i'm not even close to good looking, i'm skinny and my general look is something like: i don't care about me. But i want to change this 'me'. I think she had someone in this time but i don't think she does now. She asked me several times if i want to go out like in a group of people, not just her and me. maybe this means nothing. anyway i turned her down every time because i'm very tense around people. We talked several times about movies and music and we have some similarities. Her presence makes me feel comfortable, she has a good taste of humor.
For several weeks i'm thinking maybe i can ask her out and try to tell her what i feel for her but i'm also thinking.. hey, maybe those things meant nothing, and i'm more likely to think this way. And maybe if there was something, after i turned her down in those many occasions she may have lost her interest. if there was such thing. I want to make a change in my life but maybe this isn't the right moment to start with. What i mean is maybe i'm loosing the meaning of being with someone if i relate it with the urge to make a change. So my question will be there, should i tell her something, should i try to find someone else or should i first put my life in order ?
