I am very sorry to hear that you feel like this, i am not going to lie and say i understand but i feel that if you begin to talk about these feelings the better you will feel. holding in all these feelings, emotions, pain, hate, frustration, guilt, hunger all these things just end up eating you up... don't let that happen...

try talking about it, if this is too much right now try something called E.F.T this will hopefully help you get rid of some of these feelings to help you on your way to recovery.

people do care, they just need to know who to care about, please don't hold this all on your own.

good luck, and take care!