Dear Stressed,

   What if the answer was that this is the turning point in your life. 

   What if the answer is that this is the test you have to pass.

   What if the answer is that to pass this test, you must learn a different way of thinking about yourself and what goes on around you?

   What if, by changing the way you think about things, by choosing, as NJoy said, to think only positive thoughts, despite what seems so negative right now, you could turn your life around?

   What if there is something very important you have to accomplish in this world, but, you have to transform your inner being in order to do it??

    Have I been where you are?  Yes, yes, yes!  Did I think as you are now?  Yes, yes, yes!  Did I pull myself out of it?  Yes.

    Believe.  Somehow, believe that there is goodness, and love, and magic in the world.  What we think and how we think makes what we feel and what is in and around  us.  This is absolute fact.  Change your thoughts and beliefs and you change your world.

    The first place to start is to accept where you are right now.  Stop fighting what has happened.  This shift has the ability to give you peace almost immediately.

    If you are interested in some books that would help with your situation, I can recommend them.

    In the meantime, if you are on meds, go back to your Doc and tell them they are not working.  Go to the VA and tell them you need a psychotherapist.

    You must make climbing out of the abyss your absolute focus and priority now.

    You must make finding joy again, your goal.

    Anything I can do to help, please ask.

    Elena