So I stole a tmobile sidekick when I was with chesley while she was getting her sidekick. I remember it was on the weekend and jim wanted to go watch the lsu game. There was a box of cell phones behind the counter so that a client could test the phone. While the salesman was talking to jim about plans, he left chesley and I with the phone box. We were looking at phones and I was trying to help her decide what kind to get and we realized how easy it would be to steal one. chesley and I thought it would be so cool if we had matching phones. I was cautious, but I decided to anyways. I knew I could trust chesley. It went through, and we were so excited. When we got back to portofino, I needed to charge mine but I couldn’t because it didn’t come with a charger, and chesley's came with a charger and a usb connector, so that you could charge it through the computer too and load different themes and songs onto it. She said that I could use that to charge mine. I didn’t want to impose or anything so I was cautious, but she insisted. A few weeks ago mom and dad said that my sister and i could get texting on the real phone plans so I put my sidekick up for sale on craigslist. My paycheck was coming in late and I was scared that I would have money for dinner and a movie with the girls on Friday, then when I got fired I freaked out and sold my phone that same day. I sold it for 90 dollars, with the cord. A few days later, chesley found me in the office when I was about to meet with patsy and asked me if I had the cord. I didn’t want her to be upset with me so I figured I would just tell her I lost it and bring her a new one right after school. She asked my sister later that day if I had sold the cord and she told her I did. She then called me right after school, livid, demanding that I need to give her the cord or some money. I ordered a cord online that day. She also said that we would no longer be friends. She came to get the money and mom went to talk to her and told her that I stole it. I covered it up and told mom that I didn’t because I couldn’t deal with all that right then and mom was so sick and I couldn’t bear to stress her out. I figured I would tell her eventually. I felt so guilty because she believed me ad she smiles at me every day and offers to buy me stuff and she thinks judys wrong and she isn’t I’m wrong and my mom is so sick and what if I never told her and she died thinking that I was saying the truth it feels like shit and it sucks because I love chel so much and I was there for her when she got arrested, when she lost her virginity, when she smoked, when we saw her uncle with someone else, when her parents got divorced, when her dad met lori, when her mom was always high, when her aunt went to jail, when her mom got custody again, when her mom married jimmy, when she dated Walton and Dan and Milton and Philip and when she cheated on Dan with that guy and when she go her first job and when she stopped smoking pot and when she met Mitchell and when she started making better grades and when Mitchell's mom was a big bitch to her and when we went to new Orleans and lauren was a bitch and when we drove all over pcola in the rain to find a replacement ring for Mitchell and when the hurricanes hit and when the was a boat behind her house and through all of middle school and high school up until now and when she had to stay in hotels and condos all summer because of her parents and her favorite breakfast food from mcdonalds is the steak egg and cheese bagel and I met colten through her and I lost colten and I lost my virginity to colten the first thing I thought after holy shit I lost my virginity to colten was holy shit I need to tell chel and when colten liked Kelsey and I was so hurt and when she didn’t have any boobs and then when all of a sudden she did and we went dress shopping for her right after lotus opened and she couldn’t find any dresses that fit her boobs right and when she got that tattoo in nola and her dad didn’t find out about it for a long time and every football game that Michell played I was right there with her even in the pouring rain laughing still because it didn’t matter that it was raining, all that mattered was that we were together and when I got arrested and when I thought I was going to die at wendys because I fell into the corner and the Halloween when we got like 20 dollars in quarters and that time when the boat broke down by that old house and
I was scared shitless and when we played hotel and the first time we smoked together and when we skinnydipped for the first time and she made a song about it and it just sucks because she puts hollly and Michell and alexa all before me and I have put her first since the day I met and I’ve known her longer than they haveand I try my hardest to give her my all and yea I slip up alt, and when I do slip up I slip up pretty fucking bad but everyone slips up and yea I say I’ll change it but I keep doing it again and I try to talk to her about it but it sucks because shes always with Michell or sleeping or not answering my calls and she says I can talk to her anytime but that’s not how it feels and it hurts because I’ve been through so much with her and I only want her help and when I need it most it seems to be the hardest to get and then I just fuck up and I just don’t have a clue what to do because she's saying we wont be friends if i dont tell my mom but i dont want to tell her because i know it would hurt her and shes already got enought to handle because shes so sick and then again i do because i want chesley's friendship back and i dont want to carry the guilt so i just dont know what to do
