I agree, I have been suffering for many years with anxiety....what is klonopin?  Is it safer, better?...I am trying to get off of alprazolam, but I really miss it when I'm not taking it (besides the side effects)....It's the only drug in the world (besides alcohol) that actually makes me social....I haven't found any "natural" technique that works.   I am also going to start therapy next week and the thought of it makes me sad actually.  I really don't think anyone can help me.  I agree with you that no one "really" knows why people get it, except for a chemical imbalance in the brain.  I would never wish this on anyone, and I have always wished I was normal.  Thanks for your blog...you sound like you've been dealing with a lot too and wish you luck as well :)