Hi Maggie. I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I think the best thing you can do right now is give Austin some space. He obviously needs time to think about what he wants. In the meantime, you might want to write your feelings down, as this can definitely help. Ask yourself why you weren't comfortable in the beginning telling Austin that you tried smoking. Being honest is so important in making a relationship work. If the opportunity arises in a few weeks, you can try to speak with Austin, telling him some of the things you've had time to reflect on, like why you lied in the first place and how you are currently feeling. Good luck. I hope things work out for you.