Whats the purpose of life? things dont make sence to you. My best ans to you is, Life is what we make of it. we have many choices, we can sit and do nothing, or we can find something that interest us. Possibly you need to start from the beginnnnig, and Thank our God above for all that you have and possibly help you find your passion on this beautiful earth. Make your negitives into positives. What are we ment to do in this world you ask. We are ment to work, take care of ourself, take care of family if need be, I guess the question for you is. Do you like yourself? If that ans is NO, then you need to seek some professional help. Best to you.