Beloved, the Lord has blessed you with exactly what you asked Him for. Thing is, HE wants to be the Source of your happiness so that whether you have much or only have little, you will still follow Him and love Him, Sometimes we go after things in life and loose what we have trying to get it, until we reach a place where all we have is God. It's then that we realize, that God is all we truly need.
When we fully surrender all to God, and learn to trust Him with our whole being, and become willing, to be content with what we have, seeking His Will for our lives, and loving Him first and foremost, with all of our hearts, all of our minds, our souls and our strength. Laying our desires down, even our own lives, and what "we" want for ourselves and our lives, in total surrender, it is then that God opens doors.
You took a huge step of faith and stepped out onto the water so-to-speak, your faith in God took you there and now that you have found your "love", your faith is being tested for purity, and whatever promises you made to God, before you left, you need to be sure in keeping your word to Him now. The Lord knows you have need of things, and He will provide for you and your wife,
But He also knows, that money and things of this life won't bring true happiness. If I can't be happy/content with little, how will I be trusted and faithful to God with more? When He said, it is the one who is faithful in little things, that can be trusted with much and given more. True happiness comes through walking close to God, and being led by the Holy Spirit within you. People and things in this world are temporary and pass away, things rust and rot away, everything on earth, returns to the ground. But the things of the Spirit, heavenly things, contain life and are eternal.
A man may make plans in his heart, but it is the LORD that brings them to pass. That's why Jesus said to seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness first, and all these things shall be added unto you. Matt. 6:33 "No one comes unto the Father except through Me" "I am the door' "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life" "Lest you humble yourselves as a little child, you cannot enter the Kingdom"
God doesn't do anything half way. He's not going to leave you stranded there. I truly believe with all my heart, from what you've shared, that the reason all of these things are happening the way they are with money and living situation, and all, is that the Lord is waiting for you to go all the way first, concerning your commitment to Him, There is something He's waiting for you to do or to let go of/give to Him, so that are able to receive all that He has planned for you in perfect peace. I also believe, that He is doing a 'work' in you, so that He can work 'through' you, so WHEN He does make the way for you & your wife to prosper and find happiness together, you will find what you've been searching for and come away from it with all the spiritual tools to be able to do what you've be chosen to do. Whether that is in the Philippines or the US, nothing is impossible for God.
Whatever His Will is for your life, you know, just submit to it with all your heart If you find a way to be content right where you are, with what He's already done and given you so far in your life, you will be blessed beyond measure. Your cup will run over and when you reach this place in your walk with Him, you'll not only find that happiness you're searching for, you'll be able to say, from experience, with perfect confidence, "The LORD is my Shepherd, I shall not want", Because you will want for nothing and know that you already have everything you need, as long as He is with you, and you with Him. It is in Him alone, that we are completed and made whole.
I would love for you to keep me updated on how things are going, My email address is: olsencanon@bresnan.net Feel free to write any time, ok. I will be keeping your situation in prayer.
Blessings!
Michelle
olsencanon@bresnan.net
