About two & a half years ago I suffered what I believe used to be called a nervous breakdown.I believe it was stress due to new management personel.After 18 years I quit.
I was having anxiety attacks that were unreal.I was on an anti depressant,but it didn't help.I tried to work at a craft store,but I continued having the anxiety problems & I quit.
I had tried to get unemployment,but was denied,so I appealed but again I couldn't bring myself to do the phone hearing with a judge.I feel so stupid for being like this.
I have applied for disability but the attorney says I just have to wait for who ever to decide if I really have a disability.
I am working at a veterinary office.I work every other week & only 2-3 hours daily.I'm a kennel tech(a poop scooper)I feed & get to love on the critters too(that's the best part)they put no pressure on me(the animals).I've had to really work on being able to go there.
My Doc said I also suffer from mild agoraphobia.So I take meds for diabetes,depression,& anxiety.Problem is I can't afford all the meds & doc gives me the samples he can,but it's not enough.
I made the same amount of money as my husband does,so when I quit that cut our income in half.He has taken up all the bills except a credit card I have,that is $1100.00 over limit due to not having enough money to make payments.I have used all of my IRA to help over this time.My car needs a new ball joint & gats really bad mileage(12 to gal.).I get paid monthly($7.50hr).It takes approx. half my check for gas to make it to work for the next month.The rest gets used for groceries.
My husband has insur. but it doesn't cover alot.He recently had to have gallbladder surgery & just went back to work 8/14/08.He doesn't complain about me quitting or not making enough money or not keeping the house cleaner,or cooking,or laundry.he just does what needs to be done & lets me have my time to sleep or just sit & do nothing.
I tried going for mental health help,I can't afford to pay,I don't have enough money to pay for gas to get there,& I just can't go & talk to a stranger face to face about how I feel or what ever I'm suppose to talk about.Sometimes it just seems pointless with all the war stuff & everything costing more.I'm not fluent with the bible but I know about armageddan.
I'm not crazy,but I do know I need help,I think if I had enough money to get all of the meds. I need & to be able to take them on a regular basis would be a good start.I hope that I would be able to function right again.
I'd love to even be able to open a boarding for all types of pets(cats,dogs,birds,& reptiles)Don't know if I'm smart enough for all that though.
Sorry,for this poor presentation,I just don't have the right skills to do things properly.I hope you can still find someone that can understand & help me.I'm wondering if there is a grant out there that I might qualify for to help me try & get my life straightened back out.
Thank you so much for taking the time to even read this.
Melissa Gomez
mnsgmznkids@aol.com
