i wished i did have them. i just know that the answers that the doctrines of the church having given me doesnt seem to beworking. i am not closed minded to other answers but have meet a lot resistance from my christain fellows because  it upsets their thinking of what they have been taught.  im sure that the church doctrines have always been right. look at the cursades, buring people and tourturing them because it didnt seem to fit to them. dark ages when  people where restricted from presenting finding because it didnt agree with the teachings of the church. if you must know i have read the talmud, koran and other teaching just to answer the question that the written word is for proof and reproof. just remember when jesus came came down from the sermon on the mount. the disciples told him that someone was teaching in his name but was not one of them and jesus words not doctrine was that if he is teaching in my name he was one of us and not against us?