I too feel that way. Perhaps it's our society. Frustrated people with less, cramped by more tolerating less. I feel as I age, have wisdom, feel empowered, I won't accept less, still I do (say no, etc.) in best way I can. I think I have a disadvantage now, having been in a fall, and am experiencing 'cabin fever' so I am surrounded by friends I accept and don't make the active choices to be with like I have before are around me, even my adoring folks. These friends are some I grew up with and aren't 'evolved' not saying they don't have pluses, they just aren't driven...and I have rage. My 'smarter' friends don't 'get' the 'me' I am until, perhaps when I recover and frankly, they are on 'power trips' and 'don't admit mistakes' and take me, for granted, causing inner sadness. I know this will pass...but sometimes, I lose my positive seed. I seem up and down sometimes...when in the past I've totally blown things off. Time and continual dissapointments feed the monster. Even my great counselor's way seems 'canned'. I do not know what to do. It feels like hitting a wall. I have had outbursts only to find the person was lying or at fault, I just reacted badly...then how much can a human take? However, do not expect to get what you put out, if you are nice. Really, even while sick or whatever. People are touchy, especially in touch times. This world has had it's tough times and it's seen it's folks through. I know I am destined for good again, and will prevail. It's my attitude I need to regain...or I'm just as guilty as the rest...and I am not an idiot.
