I have a really bad phobia of snakes and I really don't know what else I can do.
I can't have aversion therapy because my reaction is physical (my heart goes incredibly fast and i have serious panic attacks, nightmares, and on occasions i have been known to hallucinate)I can't even bear the word, it makes me feel ill to say it, write it or hear it.
I can't afford hypnotherapy at the moment and I don't have a clue how else to approach dealing with this. It is really causing problems as it literally keeps me (and therefore my partner) awake at night. His patience is wearing thin but I really don't know what else to do. When I've had a fright, e.g. seeing one on tv i am jumpy for days afterwards and nightmares where I wake up screaming for weeks.
I saw a counsellor when I was 15 but it was pointless because she tried to teach me how to breathe. This just made me really angry as at the time I was self-harming because of my phobia and i felt telling me to breathe was grossly undermining the effects of my phobia that I suffer from.
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this without aversion therapy or some idiot telling me to 'breathe through the fear'?