First off I would like to offer my sympathy for your current state of grief.
I agree with Paige on therapy. Also you might consider again how you would feel if other were suddenly able to make medical decisions for you against your will before giving up your Pro-Choice view. This may help you reconcile your previous and current opinions and give you some peace in the future regarding the subject matter in general.
Best wishes to you and I hope you begin to feel better soon!