Hi ,
This man is just using you sexually and paying you for your sexual services. I am a woman and I will not be proud to tell anyone about this. I would rather work and pay my own way and be able to hold my head up.
He does not respect and love you, because if he does, he will divorce his wife and marry you and will give you all his undivided time and attention as a wife. He will make you proud of yourself by being able to tell other people that you are his wife, not just a kept woman.
There is no self- pride and honor in what you are doing. Please do not ruin your future by limiting yourself to this man who will not give you the PROPER SOCIAL STATUS. You are hurting his wife and children . BUT ABOVE ALL THIS, YOU ARE NOT PLEASING GOD because of your dealings with a married man. You are committing an immoral act.