I'm at a bit of a loss about what to think or do. My problem is this: I'm very, very worried that my fiance does not find me as attractive or desire me as much as her ex bf. She insists I do, but from her descriptions of their sex and everything she did with him and for him, it is NOTHING like our sex life. He was a black superstud, extremely well endowed (almost 10 inches), and she still describes him as perfect. I am a white overweight, average endowed, 6.5. He was into porn which he'd want to try all these porn positions with her and she willingly did it...virtually everything! We have one position we do. Which is fine with me, but I always get the overwhelming feeling that it's just a duty, never the rip our clothes off excitement she describes they did. She continues to say that I am perfect for her "now", that he was just she had then. BUT, she was with him for over 8 years, she had other options but chose to stay with him and the supersex with the monster tool. Like..."then" she had to have supersex with the super tool, but now, she's "ok" with vanilla fat guy sex. How do I make sense of this? I'd like to believe her, I just don't ever feel the want or desire she had for him. Us talking about it goes no where but in circles. What do I do?
