i meant saying goodbye to the past and realizing that it is over. it is sad because you do look back and say what have i learned from this. in order to place my foot forward in another path, i had to close the door and say "okay, there is nothing more i can do, i tried everything. i am letting it go, locking it away forever and going to go on to hopefully something better, more achieveable and more beautiful." have you ever been there, i mean at that point in your life, when you tried everything possible, gave it to Lord, GOD so HE could do some more wringing out, and you was still able to just let go for good, forever?