Hello All,
I just wanted to share that I am now 53 years old. I am also a recovering alcoholic/addict...36 years this past April 1st.
At one point when I was very young, all though I was drinking before I was born and began using heroin at 10 years old, I suffered with Seperation Anxiety...even though my mother was an abusive alcoholic.
I went on to become a doctor and then a teacher. Out of nowhere, I could not go to work, could not make it through a grocery store without leaving in a run halfway through my shopping, could not make a phone call, would not answer the phone, and eventually did not go outside my home. I had been working everyday, had 3 children, was an avid Runner(7 miles every morning), drove all over the place and it all stopped.
Every night I was at the hospital ER, or at the doctor's office "sure I was dying."
I was not dying, I was "Agorophobic." The doctor's tried me on several meds I could not tolerate, nor did they work. Something GREAT happened. Xanax came out in a study group and I was sent to participate in that. I was terrified of the ride there at first(still could not drive.) But, within a week, I accidentally answered the phone. Then I accidently went out and got the mail. Then I accidently picked some daffodils from my backyard. I saw what I was doing, freaked out with joy........and I still have my life back.
YES, I am likely addicted to Xanax and personally I DO NOT CARE. And only every great once in awhile a very small anxiety attacks hits me....as always out of nowhere. I ride it out, I BREATHE, do positive self talk, call a friend, anything and it does pass. Those measures would NEVER have worked before the Xanax.
I have been taking 3 mg. a day for over 2 decades and never once abused it and sometimes forget the afternoon does. Initially it did cause me to be drowsy, but no more.
I am free!!!!!!!!! I'm the lady in the blue Volkswagen Beetle driving happily past you on the road.
Love & Huggz,
Sarah