Hi Xtremist,
I feel for you. You are in a really tough situation. The thing is, realisticaly, you have probably become too clingy and that has changed your relationship with this guy from a friend sort of relationship, to something that is making him very uncomfortable to be around you. As you said, you live in an Islamic state and this could play a big part in his discomfort. I know that it is a hard situation, and unfortunately there aren't any drugs out there that you can take to change how you feel. You are just going to have to make a choice as to how you want to live your life and go with it. Have you ever thought about leaving the country in which you live in? That would give you a lot more freedom in your personal life. Just a thought. As for this guy. You need to decide if you want him in your life as a friend or if you can't handle him only as a friend and therefore you decide to cut ties. I can't think of any other option. Really sorry.
