i have read your ongoing relationship drama posts with your bf. I have read the constructive well thought answers from other caring souls.. My thing is , you don't listen to good advice to your situation. Honey, in my opinion , you are beating a dead horse and showing deniel and fear to let this man go. I hate to be so blunt and sounding uncaring, but not true on my part. This man doesn't give a rat a** about your feelings and you are being played as a spare tire. why  continue to waste your time on this zero and find yourself and get to know you. We who cry wolf over and over as victims  give  our personal  power away to worthless people. Time to move on with your life. Dang! no one thats good to keep oneself in turmoil and misery. Life is too short.. the living get moving .. Just let go, girl. At times people believe , because they invested much time, gives them a excuse to continued to get abuse from their s/o. stop being a victim.

Nativerose