I waded through all the details about you and she and she and you and on and on. You are both emotionally exhausted in each other's company and need a lo-o-o-ng. lo-o-ng, lo-o-ong break. You re both young and have a lot to learn and you only learn through experience. Both of you should start dating others and stop thinking and comparing about each other. You might find after a year or so that you have each been able to develop a deeper and more meaningful relationship with others OR you might also find that after all the dating you still love each other and will be able to develop a deeper appreciation and love for each other without recrimination and accusations. I wish you both much success for the future.