Am I Reaching The Next Level Of Consciousness?

From low to high, the levels of consciousness are: shame, guilt, apathy, grief, fear, desire, anger, pride, courage, neutrality, willingness, acceptance, reason, love, joy, peace, enlightenment. What does it feel like to reach the next level of conciousness? How do I know if I'm reaching the next level of consciousness? How do I know what level I'm on? I feel like something amazing is happening to me. Even though I'm bipolar and I think I'm manic I feel like it's making me reach the next level of consciousness because I'm figuring everything out. I think this is a good thing. I'm a little scared, but I feel like this will be good.