Racist,
I am sorry to hear about your encounter with blacks, now let me tell you my story. I am a 57 year old black female. I had the pleasure of growing up in the south where racism was at it's best. I had to drink out of black only fountains, sit at the back of the bus, stand up and give my seat to a white when the bus was crowded, eat in the colored section of the resturant. I had a job at a white theater cleaning up but I was not good enough to stay and enjoy a movie when the theater opened. I went to work with my mother on saturdays getting on my knees scrubing floors for the whites. I have had things thrown out of cars while walking down the street only because I was black. I have been called the "N" word more than I can count. I have been passed up for jobs and had to train a white who was less qualified to do the job than I was. When blacks were able to compete in the workplace, I went into management. The meetings I attended, I could tell that some whites felt uncomfortable with me being there but I knew my stuff. I didn't depend on nobody but God to get me where I got to. I have been mistreated all of my life but do you hear me complaining? You got into a fight with demonstrators and that has caused you to risk your soul. Jesus said "how can you say that you love me whom you have never seen, and hate your brother who you see everyday"?
I John 4:20 If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?
Matthew 6:15 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
You see, I know that the things that were done to me, were done by evil men or perhaps some that thought they were doing the will of God. I never harbored evil in my heart. There are good blacks and bad blacks, just as there are good whites and bad whites. Some of my best friends are white. Some of my family is white (my brother-in-law, neice, nephew) and I love them with all my heart. I would risk my life for them.
Please don't let hatred rule your mortal body. It does nothing but destroy the soul. It prevents you from being all in christ that you could be. The bible says that unless a man is born again, he can in no wise enter into heaven. I have forgiven my bad experiences with whites because in the words of Jesus my savior " They know not what they do". If you are a Christian, It's time for you to talk to Jesus and do some soul searching or try and figure out, where you will spend eternity.
Be Blessed.