Well I am stuck and really could use some outside vision on this.
It all started about 2.5weeks ago...
I contacted an ex of mine, we will call her Janice, on facebook (FB) so that we could meet and catch up. She wanted to do this as well. Janice and I broke up almost 6yrs ago over someone telling her that i cheated on her. She was extremely hurt by this and, i dont blame her, not willing to talk about it then. After several months I slowly got over it. Well, when I friended her on FB an old friend of mine, we will call her Kristen, was friends with her as well. Kristen back in highschool had a massive crush on me and maintained that crush for years later. (It has been almost 9yrs since we have spoken) At this time I knid of had some feelings for her as well, but I did not act upon them due to the fact that this was only weeks after my first love and I broke up. So I was pretty emotional internally about it and was afraid that my feelings werent real. So i pretty much, as Kristen would say, walked away.
So it all began. Kristen and I talked through via text for about 3days and I had this feeling in me that I just really wanted to see her. We only live 2hrs away from eachother so we set a date aside that was convenient for both us in the future. (Approx. 2weeks). Lets get into Kristen here for a moment.
Kristen was seeing this guy who literally embarrassed her, would not commit to her and deployed stating "I dont want to be involved with someone while I deploy" These 2 were seeing eachother for about 2months but with all his trainup and her work they really only saw eachother for a total of maybe 2weeks worth of days spread out into several different occasions. This other guy and her have been friends for about 6mo. and have helped eachother through rough times with their ex's and so forthe.
Anyways, Kristen and I started talking around the 3rd of Aug and it was that weekend she called me up and said she needed to come see me, because she couldnt live her life not knowing, this weekend. I said thats cool, I am available all day sunday. Kristen came down and we had a lot of fun together.
At this point Janice and I had only spoke maybe twice on FB. We pretty much agreed that when I came to town I will let her know so that I could at the minimum eat lunch with her during her lunch break from work.
Here is the issue:
So, a couple weeks go by and Kristen and I are still talking. I went to see her one day and the rest was over the phone. Kristen has a problem though, This dude she was seeing/talking to not too long ago. She says she needs closure with him before we start moving forward, which took me several days to help her figure these things out. I have spent more time talking to Kristen about life, this guy, her and I moving forward, and all kinds of other things. Honestly i cannot recall a time where we just laughed and joked.
Now Janice comes into play:
Janice and I ended up going out on a Friday night with her Brother, who is stil a good friend of mine, and his Girlfriend who is Janice's best friend. We Kissed, I slept in the bed with her that night, but nothing more than a few kisses at the bar had happened. I know first mistake, but it happened. Janice was open and honest to me by saying that for some reason she isfaling for me again. Let me tell you 2 things her:
A. I was utterly pissed off at Janice for not hearing me out 6yrs ago about the false accusations and still to this day if I ever find out who put that crap in her head is going to have to deal with me.
B. There was a lot of alchohol involved, but she was sober when she told me her feelings. Its confusing really.
Here is the thing, I am not looking for answers. I really just want to see how a non-influencial person is seeing. I know Im missing things in my vision, but I do not know what.
