Miserable

first,get a job!!once,you are financially stable,move out!you deserve better treatment!do not settle for less!

He is abusing you, and does not love or care for you either. You are being subjected to mental trauma. As mentioned by angelkiss, earn just enough money to get a safe apartment, and flee him before you suffer further damage to you health and self-esteem.

As said, I think that though not physically, you are being abused. I don't think you have the strength it take to find a job or get yourself out of the relationship. I know you don't have money, but I think you should go to counseling, some university offer free session with students to psychology, also a lot of women organization offer free therapy and support to women in abusive situations.

 Check out those links: 

http://www.helium.com/tm/205242/abuse-survivors-guide-finding

http://medford.craigslist.org/ths/535185732.html

 http://www.findingstone.com/ 

GET OUT. GET OUT. GET OUT,. I can only tell you from experience. Its only going to get worse and make you sick. You have lost the trust and you won't get it back. Get a job and sock away as much as you can to get a small apartment for yourself. You will be lonely and heart broken for just a little bit. But this ass will try and weasle his way back to you again. I can guaree it. DON'T LET HIM BACK IN AS MUCH AS IT KILLS YOU. It will only happen again all to shortly. You will be so much better off. You will be so proud of yourself and you won't have to depend on anyone. I had nothing when I first moved out on my own. I hit lots of garage sales, church thrift shops, and very good friends to help you get started in your new ventures. I didn't even have a car when I started. But God works in mysterous ways. One door closes and another one opens. Lean on friends. You won't believe how many you truely have and that want nothing better for you then to leave this moron. The truth always comes out in the end. Good luck

There are organizations like "Women helping women" for people that need a hand to hold during transition, but I agree with the advice given here: You need to leave this guy and move on to another chapter in your life.  More importantly, you have to CHANGE YOUR MIND and let go of the thoughts that contradict your highest good- like you need him. HA! like a hole in the head! pretend like your house just burnt to the ground-- you will survive! count your blessings and move out tonight! hold your head high and smile a lot-- it's prooven to contribute to positive thinking. Drink a glass of water with half a lemon squeezed into it and take extra vitamin B to keep your spirits together.  Meditate 20 minutes 3x day and BREATHE!!! It's not easy being your own woman in 2008, but you reached out to Yedda, so know there is support for you everywhere!!!

she said he likes her boss, so I think she has a job