Akshra, unfortunately in this world we can love someone with every fiber of our being, and it doesn't mean he will love us back. You need to remember why you got divorced in the first place. There is a reason it did not work. In marriage, you get accustomed to a certain routine. It is hard when you are no longer with that person because you get so used to them. I'm sure it is extremely difficult for you when you think of all the good times and memories you two had together...But you need to remind yourself why you two split. I would highly suggest that you stop contacting him if he has expressed he does not want to speak with you. If you love him, respect his wishes. It will be very difficult Akshra, no one is saying it isn't, but you need to be strong and live to be your own person, learn to live without him. You lived without him before, you can do it again. It all just takes time.