Death is hard, I think one man puts it pretty well, and oddly that man is Lemony Snicket.
Death is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try to readjust the way you thought of things. If you have not lost a loved one, you cannot possibly imagine it.
Lemony Snicket
My grandma passed away about seven years ago, and I'm still dealing with it. I know several people who have lost the ones they love in the war, and I take this moment to thank them and Captain John L. Hallett III, for their service, and tell the families, that I'm so sorry for your loss, it's hard, so very hard, to lose those you love. Good luck.