Good Grief RocMike3! OMG I can't believe it! You are a much better person than me...Talk about making a mountain out of a mole hill. Purefaith is so right when she says that you don't even know me and you don't. Don't tell me about my relationship with the Lord. I find it to be very special indeed!I wish you and yours nothing but the best. I do try my best and that's all I can do. Maybe it's not as good as some people expect but it's all I have left. Things may or may not get better for me but in the mean time I do give it my best shot. I only thought that someone might know an altruistic answer and give me some sound and realistic advise such as Purefaith has. As DrStangelove has suggested... "Pain is a part of life" It doesn't feel so good either but we can help by being compassionate and thoughtful of others and their trials and tribulations. Thanks for your attempt at being thoughtful and caring towards your fellow human beings. I can't believe that you served to fight for our freedom but for that I'm grateful...You are really something else...At any rate, I have my good days and my bad days and today is not so bad after all! I'm meeting with a life long friend this coming Friday. I haven't seen her for a couple of years because she lives in a state quite a distance away. Being with her will bring me the uplift I need as do my grandchildren and my children! My dad is a great guy too! I love people in general. Take it into consideration my dear.