hello my name is Jessica,
i have absolutely no idea what to do. Im in a "sorta kinda" relationship with my ex boyfriend who i dated for a year.lets call him "jack" We're always arguing and it lasts for days but when we have good times, theyre really good!....most of our arguments are either through text or phone, but as soon as we see each other, all the problems just seem to go away, he's said to me many times after an argument that its not workin out and he wants to move on, but then he keeps saying how much he loves me, and he always wants to be close with me. i feel like the relationship is unhealthy, and i dont know if im happy, but its just too hard to let go because it would kill me to know if he found someone else that would make him happier than i could.
another problem is that i have this best friend, lets call him "john". we've known each other for about 5 years an we kept getting closer and closer. I can tell him absolutely everything, all my problems, all my dreams, and he would make me happy instantly. i was immediately attracted to John when i first met him, but a friend of mine, lets call him "Bill", who was also Johns friend at the time, told me that he was interested in someone else. so me and Bill eventually started dating...that lasted for about 2 years and it was horrible when he dumped me. he was my first everything, but i found out later about the multiple times he cheated on me. i havent spoken to him for about a year or two . I got through that terrible breakup by talkin to John about it....even if he stayed up with me until 6 in the morning.
sometime last year before i met jack and started dating him, i admitted to John that i really liked him, and i was shocked to find out that he felt the same, but i was immediately crushed when he told me nothing could ever develop from our feelings for each other because of his Friendship with Bill. He says it would be crossing the line, and he cant do that to a friend. im sure he still feels the same way to this day, but i dont know whether to try to work things out with Jack, stick around to see if someone ive liked for 5 years (John), changes his mind, or withdraw my feelings for both of them....help!!
