Jo,

My  heart  goes out  to you , when  losing  a parent  And  No one  knows  until   it  happens  to them , On Nov  10, 2009  ..It  will be  6 years  since  my mom passed  away ..It  does not  get  any  easier 

I  think  instead of  people  commenting  to you with  a  smart  a**  answers  they should  have respect  for  you   And  comfort  you , I think  that's  nice   that  you  want  to  see  your  dads  emails, Maybe  there  is  somethings  he  said ,  that  he never  mentioned

Best  Wishes,

I hope you get  closer  And Bless Your heart