Jo,
My heart goes out to you , when losing a parent And No one knows until it happens to them , On Nov 10, 2009 ..It will be 6 years since my mom passed away ..It does not get any easier
I think instead of people commenting to you with a smart a** answers they should have respect for you And comfort you , I think that's nice that you want to see your dads emails, Maybe there is somethings he said , that he never mentioned
Best Wishes,
I hope you get closer And Bless Your heart