Today is your lucky day! I just happen to have the answer to your question and your satisfaction in the end will be guaranteed!!! Obviously you are not a kid anymore because there are people your age right now in military, serving their country in the Army, Navy, AirForce, and of course the Marines. They have done and are doing things they may not like, but they do it anyway because that's what A MAN DOES. But a man also knows by doing some of those things that were hard to do, that in the long run it will be worth it. The reward will be greater, their personal satisfaction more intense! For example, if you asked a Navy SEAL if they liked going thru BUDS training and was Hell Week lots of FUN, they will all say "What Are You Stupid, NO It Was Miserable". Sitting in cold water at night on a beach full of sand, shivering until you turn blue from the cold, and all the while the drill instructors are yelling at them that their nothing but wimps. Are you a wimp? I'd say no, because you know you have a problem, and you're not afraid to ask for help. That says A LOT about your character admitting to people at this site about your problem, and then asking for help. I mean that, no BS, you deserve a ton of credit for it.
So you asked and this is my advise, straight up man to man. Unfortunately you are going to have to do somethings that will be very hard to do. You have to get that "monkey" off your back, and by that I mean your substance abuse. You have to fess up to your father, he may not like what you are going to tell him but he'll deal with because that's the way it is. Ask him to help you get into a rehab program. Eddie Van Halen just came out of rehab not to long ago and is touring clean and sober and he's not the only one. So as far as going to rehab goes you're in good company with A LOT of cool people that like you, made some poor choices. If your Father doesn't want to help you and freaks out, fine, there's not much you can do about that, but one way or another he will find out. So it's better you tell him besides, he just might surprise you with more love, support, and respect that you ever thought was possible. But if not, that's ok too, you'll go it alone by getting yourself to the nearest hospital emergency room, tell them your story, and YOU WILL BE HELPED! Now go do what you have to do, and Take Good Care Of Yourself M,man...
- Renegade -
