Hi, I have seen what alcohol can do to a person. It sounds like you can handle the truth, so here goes: Alcohol destroys cells...brain cells, muscle cells, nerve cells etc. etc. It sounds like your nervous system is being attacked. Alcohol is known for causing problems in the nervous system and brain. When someone has reached their limit of alcohol absorption over a period of time they often get tremors, DTs, and brain disorders including hallucinations...years ago they put people in padded cells until they "dried out"...Today they are probably hospitalized. If you stop drinking, your body may be able to heal and recover. If you don't stop, you can reach a point of no return and your body will not be able to heal. Then it will eventually destroy you and ultimately kill you. I hope you will make the right choice before it is too late. The person I knew waited too long before he stopped drinking. The damage had already been done to his heart and one morning as he got out of bed, his heart just exploded.