Dear kloz12, In our family we rely on the faith we were raised with. I don't push those beliefs on anyone, but I certainly offer them as options to explore if you're truly looking for answers and not just inciting hostile conversation, as can be the case on these forums. I'm not afraid to die. I don't want it to happen anytime soon, mind you! My belief in Jesus Christ insures me a place in heaven. That fact I can take to the grave with me. As for what happens right after I get there, I have no clue. There are many interpretations for that coming from the Bible. I'm up for the surprise. Sitting in church every Sunday doesn't make you any a good Christian than sitting in your garage makes you a good mechanic. You have to work at it. I suggest to you, as I have with my own sons, to visit different faiths. Keep looking, keep asking. Something will ring true to your soul. But there is something better after this. I promise. Bless you on your journey.