(Toobz4dis), explains alot. Time to slow down and take time for yourself. Deep breath. Diagnosed as bi-polar? Why not call the doctor that diagnosed you for some help? Tell him you would prefer an alternative treatment, and if he/she cannot offer it maybe they could suggest or refer you to someone that practices alternative treatments. So far I have been told alternative treatments are not available with the bi-polar mental illness. Try some of the health care facilities suggested by BigHeartsWithHelpingHands above that are in Arizona. I NEED HELP TODAY!! is a response symptom of bi-polar, it could be you are having a manic attack or a depressive attack, the doctors could better help you understand the stages of the mental illness you describe. Be sure to include that it runs in your family in the family history report that you will fill out, all this plays out in the correct diagnosis for you. You might have to face the fact that you will be on medications for this disease. Take care, Writer 52