Depressed and Suicidal

First of All this is not your fault.  Your husband is obviously addicted to porn and needs therapy. Death of yourself is not an option. If you are so desperate try a different approach..give him an ultimatum either tell him that he needs therapy and take the keyboard away from him, then call the cops if he gets angry and throw him out.  Fight for your own life. There is nothing wong with you--seek a therapist for yourself immediatly if you are having suicidal thoughts.  Once you are gone you don't get second chances.  I tried suicide twice, not knowing what else to do..then i found out i had a huge aneurysm in my brain and my whole outlook on whats important in a sane moment turned me around...there is nothing wrong with me other than my own problems that i need to solve.  You are allowing your power to be controlled by a sick person. Get help for yourself, and talk with a professional how to deal with your feelings of desperation.  Please promise me for today you make one small step and call a therapist,,even out of the yellow pages,,or go to an ER if you are feeling suicidal.

Survivor17-According to the title and topic of your question, I think your issue needs immediate attention. I can't tell you "why" your husband is more intrested in pornsites, but I can offer you some advice on how to rectify the issue. Depending on the type of relationship you are in, you should try to talk to your spouse about your feelings and the current situation. If you feel like he is ignoring you, tell him. Try your best not to be accusatory and start the conversation with the "blame game". Attempt to state facts such as, "I feel alone when you prefer to surf the internet instead of spending a quiet evening with me". This takes the pressure off of him and puts it at the heart of issue- your feelings. Also, you titled this comment "depressed and sucidial". These are words that describe overwhelming emotion and should be taken seriously, no matter what the issue is. I would suggest couples counseling in order to help with your relationship issue, however, you should seek individual counseling if you are feeling "depressed and sucidial". Please look in the phone book for community counseling centers or have a friendly talk with your family physician for a private recommendation to a counselor who can assist you during this time. In some states, there is an emergency helpline that can offer support and referrals to counselors that are free or low to cost. In the Midwest, that number is 211. I am not sure what the number is in your state, but it is for your best interest to find out. It must be hard to be in a relationship and feel so alone at the same time. Please take care of yourself by finding support for your feelings. Loving yourself is the first step in being in a health realtionship. Good Luck and God Bless!

CounselingGraduateStudent in the Midwest :-)

this question was asked by cyaac's not me survivor17

this question was asked by cyaac's not me survivor17