Hi Kelli, ----------- I feel very sorry for you. Your notes indicate how you really feel. Please Kelli, your dear mother lived 57 years and you concentrate on the last days.... that is unfair ! ---- Please give it the right proportions: Concentrate on the nice, meaningfull 57 years with all the acheivements (e,g: creating such great relations with you) and look at the last days as the last chapter (not the main one). Concentrate on what your dear mother did for you, ment for you and the "treasures" she left you for life (rather than the missing "Goodbye"..... which is important and I am sure she would have said a big goodbye if she could). If you want send me (in private) your mom's full name and I promise to pray for her when I'll be in Nazareth or Beith-Lechem. -------- Be blessed,