Since i was a child, i have had imaginary friends. However, as i got older, i feel like it has gotten out of control. I have many so many different people, each with families and their own problems. I understand 100% that they aren't real, yet when I talk to real people/friends I include my made up friends as if they were real. I talk to other about them, and make up stories. I feel like not a day goes by that I cant stop lying to others about the fake people i make up.
I have been doing this for so long. I have never told anyone about this in my life. When i was in highschool, i become friends with a guy. We become every close. In a sense i lived a double life. I created a girl than pretended that i was her. To this day i am shocked about that i did it. I developed a long distance relationship with the guy posing as her. My real self and the guy were also freinds. As time went on the guy discovered that it was all a lie and stopped talking to me. I will never forgive myself for what i did. And i still dont understand why i did it. After that happened, i toned down my fake world of unreal people.
Ive always wanted to ask someone why i do this, but i never could build up the curage to ask. I need an answer. My main questions are:
Why do i make up people?
How can i stop doing this?
And is there something wrong with my mental health?
....am i really crazy?
I am 20 years old, i had a good life growing up. Please help me understand this.
Thank you for your time,
Adrian