Thank you Rock for responding to my message. I hope your as mature as you look in the picture, I really enjoy conversing with both men and women of older generations... I guess thats why people of my generation come to me for advice.
Now back to my initial question.... I know what you mean by "stooping to conquer" but then again I dont. I hate to be conquered, it leaves me feeling vulnerable to getting hurt again. I dont male bash men when I initially find an attraction with them, or while in the midst of trying to work things out... I tend to bash them, to get over them, and make myself feel better about our failure. The bad part about that is... sometimes my false strength lingers on to the next relationship, and I've come to the realization that the older I get, the more intolerant I become. One example of me trying to help myself get better is when I decided to reconcile with my son's father. He was my first real boyfriend, and he hurt me really badly, so just recently I decided that I'd mend our friendship, in hopes that I'd be able to let go of some of the pain that have led to me becoming this hard stone. Do you have some other recommendations that I should try to help me restore some of the love that I've lost? ( I didn't see the play you were refrencing ) I guess Im a little insecure about anyone ever loving me the right way, so I tend dismiss it with ease when it doesn't happen. And my skin just gets thicker. Sometimes I'm afraid that I've lost the traditional woman in me. ( I used to be a true sweetheart !)