Dear Mojgan, Oh honey...I hear your pain. First of all, you are a single mom, meaning have no help with the babies & household? A lot of what you're experiencing is simply having a baby later in life. Although mine were all born in my 20's, friends of mine who conceived later, 30's & early 40's, have told me they thought they were going to die from exhaustion the first couple yrs. And all of them had partners to help yet they too worked full time. It takes a woman's body around 2 yrs. to completely get over having baby, & then there is the chance of depression as your hormones are still messed up. "Tippy" gave you some excellent advice. Please see your dr., don't be shy, tell him or her everything you're feelings, emotionally as well as physically. You need help, other than medical, you need someone to help with the housework & sometimes keep your baby while you do something just for yourself, if it's only an hr. long hot, bubble bath! Do you belong to a church, have family nearby, good friends or neighbors to come to your aide? And you need encouragement...YOU can do things throught Christ Jesus who strengthens you, that is a promise of our Lord God. I have a severe handicap that has grown increasingly worse over the yrs. Having 3 children didn't help my medical condition, it actually hastened the progression. There were days I thought I was going to die from the dire exhaustion & frustration. I had a wonderful husband that helped do just about everything but he had to work. If I had not learned how to pray more effectively, lean on the Jesus, get into the Word of God (where there is strength, guidance, wisdom, & comfort), I would have folded physically & emotionally. I had to learn all this else destruction was fast on the horizon for me. So please, take care of yourself not only physically by seeing a dr., remember your spirit needs fed, lifted, & edified just as much as your body. I am praying for you & that precious little one. Know that you are not alone, it just feels that way, there are lots of people out here who care about your need & life. Bless you & that baby in the name of Jesus, Trishahearon